I’m in the process of transcribing a lot of my poems and lyrics.  The one I’m in now is from a few years back.  A time capsule of where I was including the space of  having trouble with a difficult friend:

Drain
c. ‘04
By J. diels

You just drag me down
And it’s hard enough for me to keep my head above the ground

So why do I stick around
Feeling all your manic light?

Trick myself thinking it’s all right?
I can keep my distance from this
Vortex I insist

Then I find I’m
Spinning
Loving all the attention I lavish
On you
Like I’m a savior
Or a martyr
for putting up with you

Starting to tire
Like all the others do
Who have the sense to leave
Drained from your pain
Spun into frenetics

Anything else but sane
We run run run away
Together

I’m tired
Drained
So I’ll be leaving you soon too